Thankful....
Today, a day unlike most days, brought a very unexpected event into our lives. I found myself this morning with my heart sinking to my feet as my teenaged son screamed for me. "Mom!!!!!!!" I've heard my name called before on so many occassions in my life, but this time the holler curdled my stomach and I knew. I knew before the words even came out of my son's mouth. His sense of urgency put my feet in flight as I was already headed in his direction. I KNEW but could not get there quick enough.
I found myself giving thanks today, and my focus changed into an entirely new direction. I've been so darn worried about fiances, setting up a new website, and getting Noah to Disney by next year that I feel my TIME management hasn't been very balanced. I keep telling myself that IF I work hard enough NOW I will have lots of time later. After today's incident, I told myself that TIME is NOT something we always have. We are not guaranteed tomorrow.
Noah, our four year old with Down syndrome, tumbled down a long staircase today. He ran into his brother's room and headed straight for the drum set which dangerously sat by the stairs my son has in his room. I believe a guardian angel cushioned his fall down the long red carpeted staircase. Just typing these words out brings tears to my eyes because I KNOW how precious life is, and how fragile time is. I, of all people, know this after Noah's ordeal with his heart repair last August.
Yet my husband became fired from his job the day he went back to work because he forgot to add oil to a transmission at his job before Noah's surgery. Then after a few weeks he found another job, only three months later to be laid off because it was in the construction business. I tried to warn my husband but he refused to listen to me and swore to me there would be no layoffs. So all of these events brought me back onto Keen, and my focus has been to make sure we never end up in that position again. I can't prevent my husband from making bad choices, all I can do is make sure I'm making good ones. As a stay at home mom, I've felt like I have the MOST important job in the world. As a reader on Keen, my job has come first as I shout for someone to watch the baby. My job is very important to me, but I guess you can say I plan on taking more walks and building more snowmen. I plan on baking more cookies, singing more songs and teaching more A,B,C's.
I'm trusting GOD will open doors for us financially, and right now I've just got to keep the faith. So I'm just taking this moment to be THANKFUL for what I do have... three precious boys at home, two grown teens in the working world, and a husband who has tolerated me kissing him then saying... "Here's the baby, I've got to work now." (Even though my office is upstairs)
When I'm not available, you can always give someone in my group a call! Victorious Envisionaries I'm hoping to get my new webpage up too (Tarotqueens), and I've got a LOT to learn but for today I'm just giving thanks for everything I already have.